Wings of Love.

This may ramble a bit, I've spent the last five days doing almost nothing but talking to my beloved. Why I never get tired of it I'm honestly not sure, but I really really don't. I can't seem to get enough. We have discussed some very serious matters. We each have issues that we are coming to terms with, albeit slowly. Yet each time we talk we help each other through something, and we come back all the stronger, and ever more deeply entwined. I spoke to him a couple of days ago, about my worst pain, the one that ruined my life. He held me, kissed me, and told me we would work on it, but that he loved me. I guess that's really the thing I keep coming back to, the miracle of my days and nights. He loves me. He knows who I am, he sees me for what I am, and he wants to have me around. he said a few days ago that I see parts of him he didn't, and credits me with wisdom. Well the feeling is reciprocal. He sees things in me I never thought to look for. He likes who I am, and if he doesn't like everything I've been and done, He knows the reasons why I did what I did and loves me for having come through it. He thinks I'm wonderful, and I couldn't be happier. I've never felt particularly wonderful before, but when he says it, I believe I am. A rare Miracle My Deimos. Lovers beware, love isn't something that just happens. You fall in love it's true, but then it has to be returned, and as you get to know the other you have to make room in your heart for exactly who and what that other is. My love fears things will not work out sometimes, Things relevant and yet tangential to our love for one another. Me, I fear different things. I know that if we work on it we can make the marvels we need a reality. That's right beloved. We can and will do this. Sometimes I fear I am not good enough for him, but I love him, and trust him. I will place my trust in him. I do place it there. Knowing full well how it will destroy me if my fears come true. I want this you see, want it so badly that all considerations of personal safety become null and void. That is what Love is. A big scary leap of faith. Hoping, praying, that the one you love will catch you. Will hold you, will keep on loving you no matter what. The catch dear readers is this, in order to gain that you have to give it. I will hold him, love him, and adore him, no matter what he does, because I want him. I want this, and I choose to do whatever I need to to keep it. To accept all that he is, freely, with love in my heart. And offer him the trust, that he will do the same. Such is the trick to love, finding a partner who can love the deepest, darkest part of you. And loving them back. It is a leap of faith. One that each of us makes. trusting the other to catch us, and for now, we soar, flying on wings of love. For quite some time I believed Love was a Lie, a cruel, vicious lie told to make people do what you wanted them to. You all know what I mean. The "If you love me" deal. It doesn't work like that, if you have a partner who is doing this, run far, far away, it will only hurt you. Find a person who enjoys you. All parts of you, one who finds what you are appealing. This can be tricky inside the flesh, because flesh lies as surely as words. One can really like a person based only on good looks or charm or whatever, but if you don't mesh well in your interests. If you constantly find yourself holding things back to "make it work" it is not real. Love bears all things because the sum of a persons parts is not the be all and end all of a relationship, it's just the beginning. The whole being greater than the total. Smile, I love him because we sparked, and shared. Because we are learning together. the initial spark must be fanned, nurtured, by mutual understanding and growth. He loves my foibles and I his. That creates a strong base for developing a love to last a lifetime. Kisses Deimos. I love you.